We were back in Mok's place for Eid when we first told her the news-not that I was ready to share my special secret but only just to avoid my head from falling drop dead into the pot if she asked me to cook again..!We made her swore not to tell anyone. At the time my pregnancy blues were starting to get from bad to worse. I would vomit every time I had anything to eat. That was easy to manage though as it was still Ramadan, and I didn't have to do much eating during the day. Only at one time, I didn't feel like getting up and join them for Sahur-the early morning breakfast-as I was feeling really nauseating and for fear that our secret would show. I told Nizam to go ahead without me, and back in the room, I just had a box of soya bean and a plastic bag ready to pass out!
Later in the morning, my sisters in law kept teasing me saying that I wanted Mok or Nizam to actually come and feed me in the room...that I was too lazy to come out. I just smiled and pretended not to hear them...Mok had actually wanted to bring me a tray of food when Nizam had stopped her.
Raya came and I had to control myself from eating too much. I was beginning to vomit almost every other minute then. Travelling back to KL was a real torchure. I vomitted at every single bump all through the journey and not to mention that my back was screaming in pain all the way! That was really exhausting and by the time we got to Kuantan, i just couldn't take it anymore (we took the KT-Kuantan route to KL, passing through the seaside as there was a massive traffic jam in Gua Musang-Kuala Lipis route). I made Nizam stopped in Kuantan for the night before continuing our journey the next morning. It was quite nice actually, we found ourselves a little motel by the beach and had a good sleep. Soon after breakfast early in the morning, we hit the road again. Very relaxing and enjoyable journey back home to Shah Alam. I was just one month pregnant just then when all the other symptoms started to show....
My morning sickness wasn't just a morning sickness to begin with..,it was an all day sickness! I couldn't even look at the kitchen-let alone to go in and cook! I couldn't smell anything lemon (the bodywash, the dishwashing liquid, the air freshener..) and somehow. i couldn't even go in to the master bedroom that I felt like throwing out as well that we had to change room and stayed in the middle one. I still couldn't possibly eat or drink anything that i just had to live on glucose. Sleeping in the night was quite an experience too. It was awfully ticklish to turn on the side as the tiny zygote would follow me as well!
At 3 months of pregnancy, my appetite was picking and I was beginning to start craving and was starving most of the time! By hook or by crook, I needed to have my -3 piece per serving-ayam goreng kampung every day!...and when I ate...,it felt like the food was going down to a bottomless pit, that it took quite sometime for me to feel full!!! My tummy started to show then...,just like a little bump! Apart from my constant back ache, all the other symptoms were diminishing and I began to feel brand new! My skin was glowing, my hair was shining and I was positively radiant and happy! From day 1, Nizam treated me like I was a Queen all the time...not that he didn't treat me like one before, but being pregnant, it was double you know! Every morning before he goes off to work, he would prepare me breakfast and smother me with his soft butterfly kisses all over my face, and every other hour during the day he would text me asking me how I was getting on or just sending me love messages. Sometimes he would comeback to send me lunch...,shred out the chicken for me, and rush back to work! I thank God to be blessed with such a sweet husband..! I am trully gratefull!!!
We were at Jiji's (one of my many cousins) open house when we decided to reveal the news to Mama. I said, "Mum, kitaorang gi Jepun 3 orang nie..)" and she was sooooooo excited that she started to bug me for details!!! I laughed just looking at her-knowing that I had enjoyed carrying my precious baby for 3 months now without her knowing! She didn't mind the least bit about that. Her eldest daughter was giving her a grandchild! That was good enough!!! She had been waiting for this great news for ages, and this time, it was she who couldn't stop smiling!
Time went past really quickly and I was beginning to get heavy. At one time I couldn't even get up from the bed and walk! my back ache was killing me! Lucky Nizam came back at 10a.m from work after I replied his message asking me how I was doing. I was surprised that he did because I didn't tell him to come back, I just told him that I couldn't get up..! Anyway...,being a huge whale on two legs, it was a big effort for him to lift me up. I just needed the loo so badly. I cried each and every step that I took to the toilet. I just couldn't stand the pain. The next morning, Nizam went to work late after fetching Kak Mariah to give me a massage. It took her 3 days to get me back up walking again. Alhamdulillah..!!!,but Nizam was worried all the same. I was 7 months pregnant by then, I was looking really huge (everyone thought I was carrying twins) and my condition started to get bad again...About 5 weeks before I was due to give birth, hormonal reaction took place and I was feeling itchy from top to toe!!! I was scratching more than a monkey would do day and night!!! Initially I thought that i could bare with that, but I thought wrong! I just couldn't cope at all!!! We went to see a skin specialist and got some tablets...I managed to calm down and got some good sleep after that...and so did Nizam...,because otherwise i would be waking him up in the middle of the night or at some ungodly hour in the morning asking him to rub my back and I would be scratching everywhere else at the same time!!!-Sigh!!!-Looking back, it all seems funny now, and was such a beautiful experience though through that 40 weeks, I managed to experience all sorts of different pain I could ever imagine. It was also beautiful in the sense that I could see how much my husband trully loved me...and I was really touched and felt really loved with every single thoughtful gesture that he showed when he was taking care of me and I loved him even more...!!!
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